Saturday, January 31, 2004
something's reallie wrong with mi...haii. i cried last nite. cried myself to slp.
someone called mi a crybaby again. but i cant control myself. seriously dunno wat's my prob. im scared of lots of things...i'm scared i'll break down reallie soon...im scared tt i wun do well this yr...im scared tt i cant cope with the workload...im scared...reallie scared...): i feel tt i've changed alot...i wasnt so pessimistic in the past...i dun get angry when i dunno how to do my hmwk in the past...i dun usually cry over my tests...i get sad and irritated easily...very easily...my temper is also getting worse...i feel that im taking things too seriously...everyone's asking mi to relax..chill...but i jus cant lorh...
this afternoon, my father told mi tt my cousin is suffering frm depression after her father's death. she used to feed the fishes in her house together with her father. after her father's death...she continued feeding them for a few days but now she has stop feeding. plus she became reallie quiet. my aunt sent her for counselling but she refuse to talk. she onli respond to my aunt. i rmb during her father's funeral, i had nv seen her cry. she bottles up all her feelings. mayb tt's the reason why she's suffering frm depression.
hopefully i wun be like her....suffering from depression...dun think i ever will cos i dun keep everything to myself. when im sad i'll cry, when im angry i'll find someone to complain to. and i'm feeling sad at the moment...
i was blue-d at 6:16:00 PM
Friday, January 30, 2004
never touch the laptop for arnd 9 days...the laptop abit the collecting dust onli...cos i forgot to keep it mahz...i dun like sch liao can...haix. jus feel like crying.
got back my yue du wen juan. nv fail. lucky. BUT IT'S THE LOWEST I'VE EVER GOT FOR CHINESE FRM PRI SCH TILL NOW CAN!!! so bloody sickening...curse the damn chinese tcher can...she dunno how to teach one lorhs!!! havent even teach finish this chap then she jump to another chap liao. i might as well study on my own.
physics. corny sia...tt mr lee. he noes he's boring so he ask us to write on a slip of paper on how can he make lessons more interesting. guess most ppl wrote crack jokes cos the nxt day he said so many lame jokes can...-_-" almost died frm all the lameness manz...all his siao4 hua4 so leng one can...
MATHS IS THE WORST LORHZ!!!! wah liews....i a bit can pass my maths larhz. mr tan can jus continue explaining for the whole lesson and at the end of the lesson, i'll jus go "HUH?" i dun understand at all lorhz...actually the formula very simple one lorhz...but he explain until so confusing then i became confuse. I CAN STONE AT ONE QN FOR 4 WHOLE HOURS LORHZ!! can u believe it?! now i have 1 1/2 tuition tcher. the 1/2 tuition tcher is Christina!! i need her to explain to mi everything tt clement tan is talking abt lorhz. so cham can....TODAY'S MATHS TEST DIE LIAO!!! f*** lorhz. i bloody careless can. i din bother to read the freaking INSTRUCTIONS and i'm gonna get penalised for tt. cos the instruction say "DO NOT USE CORRECTION TAPE OR FLUID" and i cleverly went to use it. damnit. so shit can. and i bloody hell cried can... damn damn damn! i was so pissed wif myself lorh!! and then arh...12.95 round off to 3 sf is 13.0 rite...i the retarded one went to write 12.0! clever larh...win liao...i best lar! grr
then had prefects meeting at 2. a bit the last min. had to try the investiture uniform and order the size tt u want. then we l8er found out tt the freaking invest u cost $85!! a bit the not ex. can puke blood. $85 for the blazer, vest and skirt. and we have to get our own white blouse lorhz!! oh!! but the good new is....I'M ATTENDING COMPASSVALE SECONDARY SCHOOL INVESTITURE ON NXT FRI AND TT MEANS I CAN MISS LESSONS!! hahas. oh wells...dunno whether tt should be considered bad or gd cos i dun wan to miss out on any maths lessons....if not i sure cant catch up...haiz...aiyah...who cares larhz...
wonder how nxt week will be like...it's like smth bad will happen every week...oh well. I MUST SURVIVE!!!!
*I WANT MDM SAM BACK!!!*
i was blue-d at 11:08:00 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2004
yikes. havent blogged for quite some time. tis week isnt so bad cos there's onli sch for 2 1/2 days.
i'm finally confirmed as a prefect. part of the prefectorial board now. hopefully i dun get kicked out of the board. i'm under cheryl sim's so called committee. things get real funn wif cheryl sim arnd. haha. feels weird wearing a tie now cos i havent worn a tie for quite some time.quite funn being a prefect la...getta do different stuffs which can be very fun and can getta noe lotsa different ppl. i'll jus do my best.
cny celebration was SUPER! except for the part where we had to keep the sec 1s quiet. they so noisy! aiyo~ luv the "liu4 duo3 xiao3 xiang1 hua1" tt performance. the sec 4 prefects so farnie! then they even took the opportunity to remind us to button our blouse. the performance by CLDDS oso very nice. very farnie. CO oso did a terrific job although to suhui and i the songs seem to be the same for every yr. no offence to any CO ppl kae. then after the celebration, suhui and i went back to the pri side but there's no tcher in the staffrm except for ms foo and mrs tan. haix.
found tis on someone's blog. it's quite accurate.
SAGITTARIUS November 22 December 20
You are insensible and generally have complete no control over your
emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels
even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will
remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will
reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle
manner that the whole thing was just his mistake . You're also likely to
totally sever ties with someone when you're upset with them...
i was blue-d at 6:10:00 AM
Saturday, January 17, 2004
another week had passed...tis week sux. things did not turn out so well.
we had the sickening yue do wen juan on dunno which day. i got bad memory sia...i'm gonna fail that test i'm telling u. that bloody woman din write the time the test was suppose to end and i couldnt plan my time properly and i din finish the paper lorhz. damn. tis's gonna be the FIRST chinese test i'm failing.
then the day b4 the yue du wen juan, my mother told mi that uncle Paul, my aunt's husband, had passed away. he died in a car accident. instant death. i cried that night. had no mood to study. jus browsed thru the bks.
ytd night i went to uncle Paul's funeral. when i saw his body i wanted to cry. but i held back my tears. i dunno how to describe his appearence. it was reallie sad. then during the service, my cousin(uncle paul's daughter) played her father's favourite song. wanted to cry again. my cousin looked so shagged. haix. came back late frm the funeral.
went to the funeral again tis morning. service had alreadi started when i reached. when it was time for us to pay our respects, tears were alreadi dwelling in my eyes. tried very hard not to cry but i jus could not do it. tears flowed down my cheeks.went over to comfort my cousin. sad. l8er went to mt. vernon. when the ppl pushed the coffin in to be cremated(dunno how to spell) i cried again. my aunt sang "amazing grace" softly as they pushed the coffin in. even now when i tink abt it i'll still cry. mayb jus like
someone said...i'm a crybaby.
lord please bless and guide them through this period of time
haiz...tis week really sux. hopefully next week will be better
i was blue-d at 5:08:00 PM
Friday, January 09, 2004
I'M FINALLY ONLINE!!! after one whole hectic week. i suddenly hate sch manz...miss the hols sooo much.
had the house election on dunno which day(cant rmb). i kena saboed to be the level rep lar...abit lucky onli...
i have meetings during recess for almost everyday lar...abit can jian fei.
my class de tchers BEST lar...luv them a lot....esp maths and chinese. i got ms cindy ng for both social studies and e.geog, ms ho for eng, mrs lai for chem, mr gan for physics, ms susan lim for PE, MR CLEMENT TAN for both amaths and emaths and CHEN YU YAN for higher chinese. we were suppose to get SAM YOKE YING for higher chinese one lorh and she havent come back yet and now we got tis SUPER ENTHU woman....kaoz....cant stand her lorhz...tok so much rubbish during class. our class abit not suay onli lar....even worse...get CLEMENT TAN for amaths and emaths. confirm fail liaos...i'm gonna fail wif flying colours manz....all the seniors very encouraging lar...told them i got clement tan and they start to laugh their heads off lar...then wish mi good luck summore...abit thank u lar...clement tan oso tok a lot of rubbish during class lar...then teach abit fast...when other classes alreadi start on Ex 1D liao...we jus finish Ex 1A lar....then his cologne hor...wah...make mi wanna puke arhz...then his pants a bit not tight...then he give those notes a bit useful lar...haix. then charlotte frm 3U oso kena clement tan. then she told mi tt clement tan told them tt some of the students tt he taught last yr listened to his advice and they improved. then charlotte say.."yah..from 0-49...still fail..." lucky i got amaths tuition manz...if not i'm gonna die. i'm still considering if i should take emaths tuition as well. haiz....
all clement tan's fault...if he could teach properly then i dun have to take tuition liao i abit lucky these few days onli lar....
then todae had the sec 1 orientation. the jps were the gamemasters for the water games. was kinda funn. getting all wet inside out. when the sec 1s came to fangmin, pamela, cherrie and my station(the water bombs station), they like so hyper lorhz. take the water bombs and anyhow bomb ppl.then jia di abit nice onli lar...take the ice-cream tub, scoop the water and pour on mi lar...i look like i took a bath lorhz...then l8er on...we had some ushering duties for the parents talk. was quite ok lar....helped to "babysit" their childrens. quite funny. got one small boy kept sticking to chooting. he ignore the rest of us lorh.but he was VERY cute lar...then got another boy, arnd 12yr old, was so called attracted to fangmin. tt part very funny. too much too type liao...too tired to type all out.
tis entry very looooong. mayb cos i very long nv update liao. hahas. gonna siam and go to slp liao. need to rest my feet, stand too long le. ciaos~
i was blue-d at 11:21:00 PM
Saturday, January 03, 2004
i'm in sch for cca fair. reallie lame. cos some of us were hungry so we went to the guides area and get some food. then i saw
MRS TAN!!! the luohan.omg. then xinlei said," let's shout JOIN ART CLUB every 10 secs" and she started shouting. so malu can...then we decided to return to the art rm to hide. and we started crapping abt the 6As of the art club. yanling kept making the paintings drop which made our laughing gas active. then xinlei tore the piece of sec 1 sign up list. then we started to add all the sec 3s name on the list. and....we added MR FOO'S name as well....and we wrote "EXPELLED" under the class column. and his tele no. is "999". and the reason why mr foo's expelled is becos he's a guy. and why his tele no. is "999" is becos he was arrested and he's at the police station. how lame can we get manz...then finally we went to the roof top and the crazy xinlei and yanling started to shout," JOIN ART CLUB!!! IF U NEED ABUSE, JOIN ART CLUB!!! IF U NEED AMUSEMENT, JOIN ART CLUB!!!" so lame...and i dunno how..but xinlei suddenly say mr foo cut off his ear and his wife's ear and they exchanged ears. dotz lorh...
i was blue-d at 11:36:00 AM